Moving blog

Dear Readers,

I'm moving my blog soon, won't be blogging @ this url anymore.

Sentosa

Morning send daddy to work,
went sentosa for a walk..
Hee too bored & started drawing.


-----ME-----


-----Dardar-----


-----And We----- =D

Patchi

Patchi Patchi Patchi Patchi Patchi Patchi Patchi~
My Lovely Patchi x3

scream out loud

Read is or not is ur choice.
not happy about it? FUCK OFF!


it's only for me to change, not u
i'm always at fault , not you
i'm spoiled, not u
i love u for who u are, u don
i concern ur thought, u never
i care for ur feelings, mine who cares?
i let you too much, u take it for granted.
i dun let u abit, u scold me for being selfish
i love ur family, u hate mine.
i wont feel hurt, u will
i wont feel lonely, u will
i go home is my fault for leaving u
going ur house is a surely must thing.
i know ur parents like me,
but i have a family myself.
dun expect me to split myself into half?
i spend my time with you knowing i'm breaking their promise,
to you is correct isn't it? you want that to happen.
you'll never care even if my family breaks off becox of me.
to you, i can only listen to you than my family?
what am i to you? a dog instead of a girlfriend?
i dun think other guys would trest their girlfriends like this.
controlling is just too much.
i cant cry infront of u,
i cant say out this in my heart,
even if i'm hurt i also cant say out.
always want me to change, you thought i who?
all u love is me being others not myself.
how long more do i need to lie to myself?
why must be the one who is acting like others?
go find others u like instead, that might be better.
does true love counts how much u gave in / return?
no, it's the 1st time i heard someone saying he has limit giving in.
what does this shows? it's isnt true love at all.

Complicated

Everything is getting complicated.

My Future Path.
I'm still not sure what kind of course to choose to futher my studies.

Family Matters.
My family is breaking in any moment of time, no idea what will happen next.

Relationship.
The one of the hardest thing to handle in life which I fail to understand.

What's Love

1.Love is a Choice. That is, we are not drawn into love as by an invisible force.
2.Love is expressed in Sacrifice.
3.Love is Discriminatory. Love discriminates in favor of the one loved.
4.Love Stands Alone. It means that true love is not simply a response to
the love of another, It is an expression that is given despite the response
received.
5.Love Begats Love. This may sound like the opposite of the preceding point, both
are true. Although true love is given whether it is returned or not,
it is also the case that true love will bring the response of love from others.
Everyone will not love in return, but love given will reap love from some.
6.Love is Strong.


What's Not Love

1.Love is not Lust. Lust is a physical craving for something or someone.
2.Love is not Like. Like refers to the act of finding enjoyment in something.
To like someone is not necessarily a lower level of loving them.
Like and love are really referring to two different things.
3.Love is not Longing. By longing, I am referring to the emotional feeling
that often accompanies love. I may long to be with someone and that may
be the result of my love to them, but the longing itself is not love.
It is one of the natural outcomes of love.
4.Love is not Language. I include this because of the many gullible souls
that have identified love with a bit of sweet talk.
5.Love is not Leniency. To be lenient is to not hold others fully
accountable for their actions.

It's over

Fyp / Exam is finally over. But still I don't feel free yet.
Feeling so tied up. IT's time to decide for my future.
I'm still not sure about what kind of course / work should i choose.
For example, if i continue staying in Singapore,
I might end up loosing my family. Going HK / Overseas isn't a bad idea.
Just need to make up my mind as soon as possible.
Life is not a game where you can always restart that often.
Life is short, you never knows what will happen in the next moment.
Only GOD knows but there's no way for them to tell you.
No way depending on them you end up be the one figuring out yourself.
Miracle doesn't happen. Everything is fated. Life is your own, not others.

Prawn fishing

One fine day, having great mood do to project..
Went to Dardar's house.. Happily but later realised,
i forgot to bring my important spare parts of te project!
Dang! Sadded, afternoon ended up @ lakeside went prawn fishing xD



Disgusting worms, so bloody slimy.. eww..


one of my poor prawn's claw.. xD


Prawn: hi~ would you mind letting me go?

*step* Prawn: Ouch!

chiong ar fyp

Time really flies, it's alreay 2nd week of CNY..
currently chiong-ing my fyp, and exam is coming so soon..
not much time left, everythings seems so near..
Struggling me X.x

nerd!

OH NO!!! No no no no no no NOOOOoo!!!!
I shouldn't have touch it,
i'm regretting it now!!! Noooo!
Cry Max!
just becoz fridge too long..
keep poking my eyes, den i try to cut it..
Damn it! i really look like nerd now!!!
Noooooo~ looks funny right now.. xD
*speechless*

empty promises

the more we hope, the higher chance of getting disappointed.

it's not the first time, & it'll never be the last time.

history will definity repeat itself, so don't worry.

i won't hope much since i know how the history works.

but i just hate those empty promises you gave me.

Audi

yeah~ Bwahahahahaha~~~
it's been most one year..
finally, i'm back =DDD

my tako game xD
skills coming back =)
whee~~~~

next stop to spend money on.

arrr~ i can't stand it already!!!!
I'm Soooo craving for it~

MY


ICE3

this isn't me

i'm totally lost, this isn't me at all.
i miss the one i used to be, carefree.
i miss my home, family, friends & everything,
why must i always ended up like that?
did i ever owe anyone their time in the past life?
ever since 2010 starts with the stupid project,
i haven't been like this before,
rebel like a kid that doesn't goes to skl?
No way! this is not what i want. but i just can't help it.
everytime u need my accompany, i just agree to u is becoz i
know sooner or later we might not meet up often.
can i bare to say no? no.. it's impossible.
what happen whenever i voiced out my feelings? history will repeat.
another quarrel coming up? fight? worse, threaten suicide again?
i'm like stuck in between the one u wants me to be & the real me.
in front of u, i forbid myself to do things i like.
forbid my feelings, thoughts, emotionals & tears.
what else do i left with? corpse without all those things above?
fine fine whatever i say is just a say,
nothing can change, i just hate the one i am now.

THIS ISN'T MYSELF.

fnck up

shag max siol!
just reach home not long ago..

yesterday morning pei bf chu shi @ teck whye..
Sian, want take cab no cab, take bus no bus..
wait till dulan la. see got cab all busy or hired.
got... got green one, but they saw u..
they pretend see no one la, fnck lor.
Reach there help out abit, damn bloody hot.
had breakfast before heading back to lot 1.
help bf see wallet, slacked around.
afternoon rest till 9pm.. fncking things happens AGAIN!
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFNCKKK UP!!!
later @ night, bring bf go see doctor..
fnck the clinic so damn fncking expensive,
consultation w/o medi already $62 liao leh.. cb lor.

Haiz, nbcbcbcb de la. later awhile more going out again.
fncking project is killing me.

quarrel

fuck up day.
cried alot.
bad headache.
i hate it!


the fear will stay with me forever.

stress out

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
i wanna scream my lungs out already!!!
Gosh! i'm really feel like killing people!!!
i dun think i can ta han it anymore..

I need...

I NEED GO ICE3!!!
but so broke how go? haiz.

chui xin gan!!!

T-T

sometimes i keep telling myself not to voice out,
everytime i does that, it'll be the biggest mistake ever.
history will surely repeat itself, unavoidable things happens.
horrible. speechless.


redistuognitatirriatsujm'i,uoyot
dlrowsihtnievilaebt'ndluohsi
tsixereveni

formyfirsttimei'vebeensoafraid.

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Whatever!

boy's hot dance

Check it out xD

ftt

good & bad news,
passed my ftt easily but in exchange,
something bad happened to me..
when on the way to ssdc,
i think i tripped over the drain cover..
fell flat onto the ground,
end up both left albow & knee bleeding..
worse still no one there to help me down..
that's why i say most singaporean very good de..

well well, i'm having strange dreams again,
it's like warning me something..
how i wish i can find out the meaning behind it..

one eye closed

school re-opens, final year project started..
handling a junk of waste metals, re-buliding a car model.
we gonna have a hard time finishing it..
good luck ba~

well, sometimes something can't be said out to others..
but it's really annoys me, how long must i keep one eye closed?
i really wanna tell my parents about it.. where's my courage?
yesterday [day of my arrival],
my sister's boyfriend plans to help my sis on her project,
i didn't expect him to stay over night at our house
& it's not the first time already..
instead of helping each other on work..
they seems to be watching movies, slacking?? what fhell is this?
One more thing.. damn Nice!!
Guess what? those things they cooked and eat just dump there,
don't even care to throw rubbish & wash those dishes..
haiz, i'm speechless.. call urself Uni students?
most irritated is my sis's action.. ARGH!!!

mum not in sg, she can do whatever she wants..
BITCH!

skl re-open

once again a new term is starting,
being a good girl like me won't go school on the 1st day..
cox i'm still on hongkong xD
by the time lesson end, i should still sitting on the plane.

going back, many things waiting for me to do.
coming up next was my driving lessons, FTT, FYP & my Nafa..
gonna shag to the max. Jia You! =D

bad girl of the year!

whee~ it's the 1st day of 2010!!!
and here i'm announcing the bad girl of the year!!!

Is... Me!!!
Wahaha, 1st day of the year I slept till late late..
dinner when out drink a little =) *Hic*

[3 more days till my arrival =]